Happy New Year! It has been a long time since a personal blog post has came out. Life got in the way and I doubted myself for doing this blog, because I failed in one other goal and it was reflected in my days.
I questioned myself…
My inner voice told me…no one would wanna read what I had to say. 😐
But I did miss this because I like letting my own voice out, and writing out to help people in anyway.
I am gonna change the blog and try to see what I can. 🙂
I gave up…but I give up trying to do nothing and not feel anything.
In change, but growing to see to become a bit more self-care with sharing stories.
Because I am a storyteller in my own way, and like reading and listening to other to help in anyway I can.
Hope everyone has a Happy New Year and let this new year brings good exciting stories and adventures.
Share a lesson you wish you had learned earlier in life.
As a kid, I wouldn’t say I was too pressured.
But I did not get the grades in the subjects that my parents approved of….
There would be harsh and negative judgment and that caused me to put so much pressure and be hard and critical in my own self-reflection.
So much so, when I got a bad grade like a C or B- in grade school to college. I would cry for an hour and say such horrible things to myself. I would want to control the outcome and when things didn’t go my way, it would feel like the end of my life.
Like…I’m so stupid, Why can’t I get this right, I have no brain 😔
The instant experience or action that led to a change was in 2024. When I was depressed for a couple after I failed a big exam and others passed. I put such a comparison and felt stupid because it was a familiar subject and I couldn’t remember from college after the pandemic.
Then my brother told me to take a trip for my self-care and get into a new environment and erase everything and live in the moment.
So I did, it was the best decision. It was like a refresh and when I got back home. I googled what I can listen to for self-care and change. Because I was not in a good state of mind, I decided to focus and start a lifestyle journey that I am still continuing.
My first 2 podcasts that helped me so much even today.
Mel Robbins
Jay Shetty
2 Quotes that helped change my thought process and still help me today.
I may not be perfect, but I am worthy – Mel Robbins
Mel Robbins discusses in her podcasts, in a lot of episodes that chasing perfection is a trap that prevents true progress and acceptance of oneself.
I took that into account because I am a people pleaser and it was for other people I needed to be perfect, and set an amazing standard that I didn’t accept myself, no one can be good or excel at everything.
The externals will never be perfect, and the goal isn’t perfection. Life is not going to go your way. You have to go your way and take life with you. Understanding this will help you be prepared for whatever may come – Jay Shetty
After hearing that on many of his podcasts episodes with experts I psychology and human behavior.
I really sat with myself. Everyone’s life has its ups and downs and you cannot control everything in life, you can only control yourself, your actions, and make yourself happy.
I am still reminding myself because as I go through the stressful and bad times, I forget. So I just write it down and remind myself what I can control and grateful for.
I would describe myself as quiet but unique when you get to know me.
Sometimes…I can be creative or have a mental block.
Passionate about different projects, good news, media, and a lot of rare things to show and look back on.
I’m empathetic, and respectful because I am not quick to judge anyone until I get to know them on a comfortable level and layers for me to let go to show my true self.
I scare easily and am fearful…But I was born in a wonderful faith with a respectful religious background which I always remain humble.
Sometimes I show too much passion, especially for sports or topics I love…
I have a bad habit of overhinkjng and stressful, because ai wnt things to be perfect or fix things easily and too nice.
So I reflect a lot on myself and always try to grow in any way I can.
Can be lazy…but responsible and always loyal to my loved ones because inside that I am still working on, I care about other people more than I do myself.
The Quiet Bloom 